Hey guys!
So it’s the end of the week and so time for me to post.
Unfortunately, I haven’t really got a fresh new topic for today…
And so I decided that it’ll just be a general post! Yeah!!
So without further ado, let’s begin.
First of all, I spotted this quote recently that really captures the essence of what I’ve been saying! Yep. So it’s a quote by Oscar Wilde that goes: To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist – that is all. >
Basically, this perfectly encapsulates all I’ve been saying about living versus simply surviving and existing! Yep, to be your highest potential – naritai na!
This is well reflected in my latest song Ode To Me that I’ve just released. It should be out anytime now!!! So the backstory is that I actually wrote it in late 2024 but just left it to sit in my notes app. Then very recently I have started this new habit of music/composing once per week! And so I did it slowly but surely, using Musescore to compose piano music, and finally, after like four weeks, I finally wrapped up the project proper! Yeeha!
Now obviously, I still see room for improvement in it, at least one or two clear areas where I could have done better. Nevertheless, I’m satisfied enough with it and I saw JJ Lin’s album cover name ‘From Me to Myself’, with the song that is written for he himself alone. So, I’m happy alr yo. There’s at least a certain level of quality in the final work ok! Hah.
Huh, I randomly spent an hour or so writing a random song on Friday… Was kinda too free so I dedicated myself a creative songwriting slot. Still don’t really know if I’ll be using it as what I’ll be composing for next!! It doesn’t matter actually though, because the music once a week thing is still!! on. Yeah! 🙂
So on to life.
Well… one good thing that happened to me is this. So you may know that usually I do daily Wordle first thing in the morning! So today I got that rare occasional Wordle-in-2. Hah!!! So the word was Japan. Maybe I really got that affinity with Japan lolz.
Another thing is that… well, last week I actually played games a bit again. You know, after the most recent epiphany thingy I had? I spend some being free time on games. Well, Valorant to be specific. And FPS, or shooting game.
And you know what, on Friday morning, in my very first game, in competitive too. I literally got an ace! Five headshots with Reyna. I happened to get a first kill and then I thought well whatever I think charging in and trying to slay them all seems a cool thing to do! So I activated her ultimate ability and went 1 or 2v4 the rest lolz. And it… unfolded perfectly.
So I, as Eudarekoware (they used to call me The Destroyer back in pri school???), got on the 5 respectively damages 200, 280, 200, 160 and 280 and aced them good. Btw, just a 150 through a single headshot will suffice but well, I got in some body shots as well heh. And killed their whole team. Hahah!
Okay, am I writing this post just to show off? Lolz. Preferably not. Aw. Let me see. So what else can I talk about? Hmm…
Well, one thing is that I’m choosing a monologue for my next theatre showcase thingy. This time it’s not one I’ll be writing myself but a current already written one. I’ve actually chosen two plays to read already! One is actually a pretty common one, Les Miserables. I think it’s been played in Singapore quite frequently before but I’ve never watched it. Sad. But it seems like something I’d wanna do, one of those grand powerful speeches by a Martin Luther King-ish kinda guy! Hah.
Anyway, just gonna let that hang. Might be a totally different scene that I decide to perform in the end. I’ll see what intuitively hits. Well anyways…
I just want to say that we don’t have to be in too much of a rush to improve. Why? Well, it’s only a matter of time before our baseline itself!!! totally shifts, in a dramatically! revolutionary alteration compared to how we were prior.
Just consider this.
I took a singing class only in 2022. Before that, I totally couldn’t sing at all. And now?
Hah. I sing a bit everyday for fun, generally speaking. I randomly started songwriting in 2023 and now it’s sorta a staple! in my life too lolz. So honestly! You totally don’t know how your baseline might change… One thing may start off wholly foreign to you sure, but over time it can become an afterthought to you. Just one habitual thing that you naturally do, quite routinely so. Just think of something that is now quite a normal, regular activity for you. However, a year or two back it would’ve been a dream?
A prayer, even?
Wow.
Seriously. Don’t underestimate how far you’ve come. Your status quo is always shifting, and your baseline perspective from which you view things but seriously. I may sound a bit like a broken recorder saying this maybe idk, but seriously, you should really be grateful! for the gifts you have acquired and not take them for granted. Well just from the standpoint of positive versus negative vibrations, for one, that’s already so valid.
Just think about the main alternative!! Sure, there are all the gifts, but you take them for granted and only focus on the perceived lack. You emit an ungrateful negative vibration to the world. You might even be unhappy and unable to enjoy your life, even though it’s low-key amazing already even! Man. People may seriously think you’re wrong in the head dude.
Just imagine your childhood self now. Are there not some areas in which you’d be unthinkably mind-blowing to them? Well for me there sure are!
For me, even into my teenage years, I spent all my time reading fiction and wasn’t interested in talking to other people at all, not in the least… Huh, even just one, two years back in my coaching course, I totally didn’t know how to socialise/network whatever in the freaking slightest and would just sit in a corner quietly staring into blank space or listening to music or something during breaks. I didn’t how how to partake in convos come mealtimes. Would just be the silent one. And now… well if I went again!
I’d definitely be talking.
Let me just share with you one example from yesterday. Yesterday in my theatre class during break. If it was one year ago, I’d be quietly sitting in a corner staring into blank space, waiting for the class to resume. Yesterday? Well, instead, I actually casually struck up a nice conversation with the teacher for the week and the volunteer who was there to join us.
It was totally natural and flowed and all good. I liked it!!!
And during the class itself? Well, the teacher for the week was like a vocal coach sort of person, and she commented on how she could hear some singing experience from my voice work when I read out some lines!! Basically I wasn’t all that adept at all the micro stuff like the enunciations and all that, but for the loudness and projection and all that? No problemo.
So you see, that’s another thing that’s relatively recent but still a baseline for me, that vocal projection stuff. And yeah, suffice to say I rather empathised with all the people who said stuff like they’d learnt never to talk so loudly because that would be a nuisance and they needed to remain subdued and such. Aww. 🙂
…And regarding Korean which I’ve been learning for 122 days now, I’m at level/score 42 on Duolingo which means I’m nearly halfway through the A2 syllabus! Yeah! That’s elementary, by the way, and after that I’ll just happily step into intermediate. Which is, tbh, according to my personal translation of languages, a minor completion 小成 already. Because yep, basically I set it all into three stages, beginner, intermediate, & advanced!
That’s 小成，大成 and 圆满！Hey I’m a cultivation novel reading dude yo.
By the way, for Japanese I still don’t consider actually truly consider myself 圆满 yet even! Well, I’ve been casually doing this N1 vocabulary quiz in my free time and I’m already 25% through it, and I do have jp sessions bi-weekly at least, so anyway, gotta say I’m properly living it out still!
…Meh, why does it feel like without a proper topic I’m struggling to find things to talk about aw. Tsk! Definitely gotta find a topic next week yep!!
…Would you believe me if I said that I don’t like to talk too much about myself? Yeah, thought of something alright.
You know, they say that what magnetic people do is that they don’t see a need to be the loudest in the room! Instead, they just make space for people and listen to them, would be happy to see them shine yo!
Aka, they don’t perform! They just are! Authentically so! 🙂
And I suppose that’s what I’d be aspiring towards, if anything. So I won’t be the egoistical person yeah in case you were wondering! Far from it 2!!!
So I suppose I’ll end this article with some nice life tips that could be of benefit to y’all… hmm, does anything come to mind? Lemme think. Uh.
Alright, I got one.
So when I was chatting with the teacher and volunteer yesterday, one thing that came up was this. Yeah, it’s true that for some people like me, I can just have a one session a week thing scheduled, and it totally works!! However, for some people they may need to actually attend an annual event as a catalyst to get themselves to do the project. Or they may sign positively up for something with the best intentions but then have trouble with the follow through.
So the lesson is this. 有始有终。Have a start and have an end. When you initiate something, please first think through for a way to see it through to the end. Don’t just act on pure impulse that can’t be kept and adhered by! I mean yeah sometimes if it’s something less serious well actually it’s not that bad and still alright. But, for example like spending money even… even I have had personal experiences where afterwards I’ve realised that I wasted money!
Ugh. I shouldn’t have acted so on impulse and what feels good in the moment. (One or two minor things only okay!)
And that’s another lesson that will eventually be integrated slowly into me.
You know, I like to think of ideal living as living beyond time, in eternity…
You just live to your fullest, to your truest. The circumstances, whatever they may be, don’t actually matter. Only your embodied state of being matters the most. And if you do it right, you’ve literally scored 100. Faultless already!
Just remember that. State of being is prior to circumstances for ultimately, A attracts B and not the other way round! Though so often we fall into the illusion of B, therefore A! That’s sad. AND flawed. Huh.
Well I kinda have no idea what I’m doing with this article already so let’s just wrap it up. So as I was saying…
Yeah. For things you do, have a bigger picture of them. Think of them a lot like seedlings that you want to nurture in the soil! You’ve gotta water them often or else they won’t grow in your overall garden of skill trees!
The ultimate, I reiterate, is basically when something is just second nature to you. You don’t have to force it. It simply is your identity already. It is you. It’s just what you naturally gravitate towards doing independent of anything else. And you’re the one who creates the right conditions!
So if you sign up for something, think. Yeah, this is who I am. This is what I do. How would I not go for this? Obviously I’m doing this??
And if that something is truly important to you, why then, it totally makes sense that you’ll be cultivating the right conditions for it to flourish! …Or otherwise, beg your pardon, may it not be that important 2 ya after all?
Hey no offence intended yo!
Just totally want to emphasise and stamp in this fact.
You are the creator of your life.
Yes, perhaps your work is tough.
Still! If let’s say your work is not your passion and is merely for survival alone, why, doesn’t it make sense that having secured your survival, wouldn’t you go then to the meat of it, truly enjoying yo life?!
And that’s by actively carving out and using your free time to engage in what truly lights you up, that makes you go ah isn’t it great to be alive?!
Lolz for me tbh eating kinda does that for me sometimes too haha. I mean… ignore that! So basically, create a life you love! You’re not as passive! as you may have led yourself to believe, contingent, at mercy of! Rather, you have so much power that if you were only to pull on, man.
You live. Not simply exist.
You soar in glorious expression. Not simply survive and blank out remainder-ly.
Oscar Wilde – To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist – that is all.
Thank you! And with that I end my article. Having fulfilled the responsibility that I have set on myself for idk why I’m happy…
I enjoy writing. Enjoyment is the GOAT guidepost. And what ultimately!!!!!! comes to me as second nature is this philosophy.
Nanode, tsumari, sou sureba shiawase da mon! Idk just being wacky hehe.
Indeed, I would like to reclaim my wackiness. You know back in the day it really flourished on those translation posts where I posted that the chapter page was released and it would literally go like: Meh be posting and meh be happy. When meh post meh not just be meh but meh be over the meh-oon mehsays. Meh hope ye like meh post also because meh post so people who read meh post be happy. Meh like happy because meh like meh person but not meh mood.
Ah… back in the day of volarenovels… yejeon, jigeum giok hago isseoyo!!!
Lolz. Idk I’m just totally trolling?!!! by now orz. Heh! 🙂 Ok. I’m done yoz.
>Daimon out…
Till next week!!!
(Hu my energy)