Rather recently, I wrote a post about owning different parts of yourself and switching over to whatever you happen to be playing at different times… Indeed I find it rather off-putting when one is too one-dimensional.
So today, I’ve decided that I’ll be doing a list article. Of course, not every side of myself makes it to the list. Some will be staying out for, ahem, privacy purposes. Like maybe just one. Or two… Or three… Lolz!
Now let’s get started.
- TK Goh
First of all, I suppose, would be my creative, artistic side. Well, technically, this is like the name I post music under on Spotify so. At the same time, I totally think my acting falls under this category too!
Actually, I want to talk about a totally funny thing that happened during a theatre class yesterday…
So I was doing a duologue with a classmate from the theatre class. After a scene play we received generally good feedback, but also some comments.
One thing the teacher said was: The two of you should avoid always only playing the same kind of character. You (referring to my collab partner) were mellow. You (referring to me) were aggressive. You should also balance it out with a whole variety and not just be able to only play a particular type.
Now, my thoughts. I totally don’t think I am only able to play aggressive characters y’know. In fact, that’s like kinda the total opposite!!! of my own personality?? lol. So I told myself I did a good job and was too convincing.
Haha. Back to this article. Anyways, yeah. I have this creative and artistic side to me. So when I step into the mode: TK Goh is in the flow. Go!
Or whatever. That’s just an example. Heheh. Anyways, I don’t think I’ll write too much about this. Just a bit under each category should do fine.
2. Daimondust
Well, that’s like totally the name of this blog!! π
So basically yeah. This is the side of me where I’m doing philosophy deep thinking contemplation and all that. I write it out as well, both here bi-weekly nowadays and on FB post at least 6 times a week. Now, k…
If you didn’t know already, I was doing deep thinking from the start and in fact studied philosophy in university because I wanted to find like-minded people and change the world. Go figure. Idealistic kind yeah. Whatever!!!
Well, this is also the side of me that is kinda fascinated with all this self-improvement stuff and was, for instance, totally fascinated with all the dopamine, oxytocin, serotonin and endorphins research last week. π
Everyone has things they get lost in! And for me, this is definitely one of my main pillars alongside the previous. I see it as one of the core components of my highest expression, most assuredly!
However, regarding the me that manages my life, that’s a different self alr.
3. Gatekeeper
This is the me who decides what to give my time and energy to. For instance, I had been pushing myself too hard yesterday imo. First a theatre class, than a safety workship for cycling, then Duolingo and reaching over 10k points and first place, and it was already night…
Well! I told myself that sorry Japanese podcast, I’m not gonna listen to ya today! I’ll listen to you tomorrow. Today I’ll give back to me, feed my soul, fill my cup and all that. So yeah, Gatekeeper decides what’s worth it, what’s not. And gives the go-ahead to things.
So if Daimondust is the theoretical, Gatekeeper’s the practical.
I’ll also add that Gatekeeper believes the even tantric philosophy that your body’s your temple. So maybe it doesn’t super enjoy it all that much. But Gatekeeper still gently reminds me like a voice at the back of my mind that yeah, I’ve got to go for a walk and accumulate steps. Healthy lifestyle get!
Also, food. Normally I just eat more healthily and balanced. It’s a ratio wherein indulging in stuff I super enjoy happens on a much lower proportion… So Gatekeeper manages this dutifully for me ty.
Gatekeeper is also… well, let’s just say that my energy is precious. Thus Gatekeeper helps keep people at arm’s length and doesn’t let anyone in too easily to gain free access to all my precious energy. Because behind the gate is…
4. Cherub
Hmm… the pure, childlike carefree side of me I guess?
However, as mentioned earlier, not everyone gets access to this side!
Some people are like that, more ζ ’ηγIt takes more time before they truly open up to you and show you a greater percentage of themselves?
Well, but even then, that doesn’t mean that they’ll all rude and stuff ok!!!
Maybe it just means that they don’t radiate and shine their light so much.
Instead they’ll be thoroughly happen and fine with you being ignorant of and underestimating them. That’s totally fine and a-okay in their books! I mean, such people can totally still come off kind and friendly and warm…
Even though technically they be withholding and not oversharing, huh the horror!
They don’t need yo validation for they love them. Lolz.
Ok let’s stop. The reason this name was chosen is because it links to the next two heheh.
5. Kebab
This is the side of me that indulges in food I love yippee!
Um, I don’t really want to share all the food I super love here.
Honestly, it’s more a variety.
However, I’ll say that even expensive food may totally not catch my fancy at all and simple food may even exceed that for me in terms of enjoyment.
And at the end of every month, I go for lunch at Can’t Stop Eating Toast π
Also, after going to Japan I acquired a taste for Japanese food like ramen, sushi and such.
Alright this is all too personal imo so I’m not gonna share more of it. Just that in terms of name origin, yeah, I do like Mexican to some extent too…
And breadstuff…
Ahem.
Next!
6. Lebab
Um, to be honest, this is actually Tower of Babel inverted.
So the story is that human beings all spoke one language and were super ambitious. They tried to build a tower that literally reached the heavens…
And the divine was angry so he broke them up, segregated them into all different languages… and the tower’s construction literally broke down like a flood and collapsed.
So in a sense, this is the polyglot side of me that inverts this. Languages are a force that separate people. So by being a polyglot, I gain oneness with an extended group of people, or affinity with them. Let’s just put it as that k.
Of course, I must emphasise that I’m not aspiring to become a super polyglot who knows like 18! languages because I’m really more of a generalist than a specialist. I just dabble in it for fun… well, swim.
Well, I must say that I am really rather passionate about this aspect though, especially as compared to people who don’t actually invest their time and energy much into this at all. At least I have a daily practice religiously!! kept…
But yeah, this is just one side of me. Next!
7. Rensconn
This is actually kinda a more recently developed side of me. To be precise, Rensconn is short for Renaissance Connoisseur. Renaissance refers to like well, Renaissance man. Someone who’s spread out widely sampling a wide variety of areas rather than just one. As for Connoisseur. Yep, quality over quantity. Not too many, but finely relishing in the delicacy of each I guess.
To be precise, there are a few main areas I have under this side of me. Let me elaborate.
One side is watching shows. In fact, I have some movies I definitely wanna watch this year. Besides The Odyssey and Spider-Man and maybe even Kung Fu Soccer, there’s also possibly the Avengers and Lord of the Rings with Gollum whom I voice acted last sem and even a Hunger Games! Haymitch.
Besides movies, Netflix. I recently removed those shows that I liked well enough but didn’t really hold a place in my heart and I would be fine with literally not finishing and watching again. Aww. That’s the Connoisseur yo.
Of course, I watch at a really slow pace I would think. But as long as it’s in motion I suppose I’m fine.
Then there’s webnovels. Mainly I read these on Wuxiaworld where I even have my own translated novel published lolz. So before I had 4 I was more into, and last week I started a new one as well but I’m only at chapter 12… And I even have one where I’m accumulating to chapter 300 before I’ll finally begin to read it; now it’s just like 7 chapters away? And I sure hope I like it! So yeah, there’s that too.
And then there’s music where I recently started zeroing down to my top 10 favourite artists… not so surprisingly, literally half of them are Cpop… And I tried to pick those that really spoke to my heart and impact me bigger.
The last part deserves a role in and of itself…
8. Eudarekoware
This is my gamer’s name yo. It means like Eud the Destroyer I guess?
So oh yeah, I forgot to mention a very important thing in the previous section.
Basically, Rensconn is to nourish my inner child. Freedom and spontaneity!
Whenever I feel that I have expanded too much energy on my ambitions, well, or more like what I’m passionate about and throw energy into in general, I know this. I have to slow down for a moment and just do nothing. Like give back to myself and totally be unproductive ok. Ultimately, the main important thing is just to be like a child playing with their toys. Not being serious, being whimsical and free? That’s the way.
I don’t want to grow old too fast lol. Or not even have time to watch movies jk.
Or more like, I’m a philosopher who specialises in human flourishing. In order to truly be able to talk about that I need to do it myself too. Hence even I myself just smell the roses and do nothing particularly productive, from time to time. Gatekeeper is the one who manages this for me! The yoyuu me or the me who is oh so full of energy to spare happily goes about pouring into this and that. But once I feel oh! Strain, abort!
Why then, the Gatekeeper tells me that slow down amigo, you gotta go into Rensconn for a bit and enjoy life yo. Just enjoy being. Don’t rush I mean, life is actually about the journey and not the destination! Enjoy it please!
Being. In other news, today’s Daily Wordle was being. But I got it in four only. Third I did bling and second flint. Haha.
But wait let me not rant on too long. Back to games.
Just one sentence I guess. Yesterday before sleeping and besides everything else, I played a bit of Valkyria Chronicles and Full Metal Daemon Alchemist. Oops I meant Muramasa genuine mistake!><
Anyway, finally, moving on into the final section…
9. RSED
Basically this is short for Relentless, Stronger Every Day. I literally have a green shirt with Stronger Every Day written on it. I even wore it for my first semester showcase last year and the MC? even called it out a bit…
So anyway, you can also read RSED as reset. I interpret this as resetting my baseline such that it’s always a higher baseline. For instance, in January my baseline for cycling was like what, 13km? Now it’s almost 26 lolz. Raised good!
And for instance, yesterday I actually realised that I can now do a physical feat which had previously eluded me for too long. Now I’m not gonna share what it is, but I really quite aspire to work on getting better at it at a slow but steady wins the race kind of pace in the days to come… Heh!! Now, this is a bit of an extension of Gatekeeper in the sense that it is worshipping my body and treating it like a temple? Still, of course…
GK manages what I give my energy to, oversees what I have enough energy to give to, makes sure that I keep a healthy lifestyle. It ain’t so wholly about self-improvement!!! But RSED yeah, has those… Ninja Warrior vibes. Like getting stronger and stronger to overcome obstacles k.
I dk, maybe triathlon next time?
Now, I believe it’s better not to announce your goals to everyone because you should just work on it yourself – I’m the kind to only show them when there’s already some progress that’s been made and I have something to show for them. Still, this is totally because I wanna already have said something about it so I can actually motivate myself in the future. As in, taking it back would be so lame. >< But well, we’ll see! Live to the fullest!!
Conclusion
Yeah, basically, living to the fullest. That’s what I believe in and wanna do. Finally, I have two points I want to elaborate on before ending this article.
First, it doesn’t matter even if you are somewhat well, innately opposite of blessed when it comes to certain things. I totally know and understand that not all suffering is premised on mindset alone. For some is totally physical, external and such too! You literally cannot but have higher hurdles to face in just living a normal, good enough life.
But, hey. Are you, by any chance, living in a victim mentality? Or can you instead be a light that radiates and inspires? Can you still live to the fullest, well not to inspire if you really don’t want that, but at the very least, more to live a life of happiness? Quantum field, possibilities. You, choice.
Second, know that you don’t have to force yourself to try too hard. Ultimately, as I’ve previously said, it’s impossible to do better than your best. You also cannot pull the sprout up from the ground to make it grow faster – on the contrary, you might even uproot it and prevent it from ever!! reaching it’s full potential. No, instead.
Breathe. Don’t rush. Take your time. Just work on one thing at a time and don’t forget to enjoy the rest of your life while you’re at it. That’s like how we teach old people bad at tech – one at a time. Just let each thing stick, as eventually, life overall will be all the more abundant, rich, wondrous.
Again, quality or quantity.
So I hope you enjoyed this article if you did read it to the end! Again, this was about the different roles I play in my life, each given different names. Perhaps I can romanticise life and say – I’m going Kebab mode later! Or Eudarekoware is in the house! when it so applies. Again, it’s for fun and to enjoy life. Well also, I guess it would be a call for people in general to live your passions. I for one am kinda living mine by writing this now hey…
It totally didn’t feel like work at all, of course.
Why, instead it felt like my soul was getting a massage.
They say you are your own greatest project. I totally believe it!!!
Again, don’t limit yourself.
Change begins from effort.
Let others be yo inspiration.
Rise… and soar.
Daimon out π
C’yall peeps.
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(Time for ahem… breakfast though it’s 11.29. Lolz ><)
(Whew lost myself!)
(GG)