Saturday was a day of many breakthroughs for me. And though much of the joy has already faded away now, I would still like to log some of it here.
For instance, one thing was that I realised I’d been clocking 7500 steps on average for the past few days. 10000 for days of higher exertion, and even 5000 on a rest day. Technically speaking, 7500 is kinda like the cutoff point where the return from increased steps starts to fade. 10000 is more a nifty! marketing campaign yeah. Now the reason I’d aimed to just average 5k was because of the 10 healthpoints I would gain.
Anyway so basically, I realised that I can start setting 7500 steps as my goal average for real soon.
And another breakthrough I had was that I gained a new skill. Namely the ability to start a conversation and chit-chat with other people. Now I’ve never had this skill before and am much more used to silence really… Anyways, I wanna try to continue cultivating this skill in the days to come.
I mean if people did talk to me I could talk back okay! Just the initiative!
Lol back in school I think they even nicknamed me statue at some point before rofl… never mind. Toggling… enabling extrovert mode. Activated.
So with that, let’s get into the real content of this article. And if the start was not a hook that drew people in but rather caused them to go huh??? and stop reading, accepted! I don’t care, I’m totally fine with that! Yep. K.
Now, around a decade ago, if you asked me I’d have said that the meaning of life is to live. As in to truly, actually live, rather than just exist! And now well, I still believe that really. However, I’ve gained a deeper understanding of it.
So basically, let’s go to creator consciousness. Different people have all their own different things that are important, good and true for them. Thusly? Well, the answer then is simply to craft a life in that regard! Aligned with your truth!
Well I kinda was doing this already but somewhat more unknowingly yeah.
Anyways, everyone has our own meaning that we build a system of order out of, from initial chaos or entropy perhaps. And basically hey, isn’t that like kind of the whole point of existence? For also, isn’t it the case that we can only truly fulfill and satisfy ourselves by duly following alongside what is true for us?!!
So I plan to delve a little into doing so for myself in this article, I guess, or at least a brief example/illustration. But first I have to emphasise something. For well to be honest, we are but co-creators.
The universe follows alongside our creation journey for the entire process.
For one, the universe is precisely that which puts what we want into our minds. I mean, I wouldn’t be doing this if it wasn’t something that the universe blessed me with yeah? Like if it blessed me with say soccer or whatever, that would literally be what I’m doing!!! But also culmination!
See, the true method really might be to surrender to wuwei and go with the flow rather than to force control. For instance! Past, present, future. Maybe you want this to be the case, aka you see it in the future. Yet you really try so hard, but you can’t stamp it into your reality now!! What do you do then? Well, you accept it! You live with the current reality now and all its blessings, with the corresponding gratitude. Let it happen organically.
When the time comes, and it will, for the universe wishes to prosper you and has your back, it will happen naturally. You need only flow into that moment with utter ease!!!
Alright fine I’ll stop being abstract and use a real example. I’ve been upping my cycling distance recently. And I totally do not believe what Google says about cycling distances.
Anyway.
4 weeks back – 15km (breakthrough from 10+)
3 weeks back – 16km
By the way there were probably fevers and such after those.
2 weeks back – 11.9km
Yeah my condition was quite dismal that day.
1 week back, last Saturday really – 17km
Well, at the cost of super soreness for a bit 🙁
So, basically…
2 weeks back, I could have chosen to feel miserable about how lousily I had done in my ‘cycling sidequest’ lol.
But I didn’t.
I trusted.
And I moved on.
And last week?
Well, the universe showed me that my efforts were still being reciprocated, my growth was still ongoing!!!
20km baseline will be soon yo heh.
Anyways…
I trust this principle: The energy that you give is the energy that you will get back.
Basically, it’s kinda the law of conservation of energy yeah!
Thus, what do I care if my energy isn’t reciprocated right now? I know with utmost certainty that it’s stacking, accumulated and waiting to be bounced!! back to me multifold! And so I need only continue emitting positivity and being a source of light. It ain’t ever wasted yo. And you know, I totally can take however many breaks I want along the journey! But still hold me to my own standard of course. -> conscientious level.
Anyways, yeah.
For some reason, everything seemed to click for me Saturday night in the shower and I was over the moon. (Yeah showers flow good inspiration in!)
Because you see, I was finally seeing quite a solid structure having been consolidated from all I’d built thus far. Hence solidifying my forward motion in the days to come… in a truth created by me, & for me!!
Then I realised. Oh!!! Now I see why that job didn’t work out for me. It would have prevented me from reaching this point. Life would have been stale and old tbh… Sad but true. Oh!! Now I see why this new element was introduced into my life! It really is kinda kickass cool huh!
Until basically all that remained was to do another big picture review of my overall structure aka schedule I’ve built thus far.
Anyways, to cut a long story short, I saw four areas of expansion, eumsig and eumag (food and music in korean), x=? and x=? (math and unknown). So basically, maybe I can use Sundays to eat more nice food yay! Because to be honest I live to eat! Hah! And music is really another branch… so really it’s like this.
I’ve tried to add some new elements in my life before, but they never worked out. Now that I think about it… hey. Thank you universe… Evidently I was just being protected! My life is already quite full. Were I to have stuffed all those additional elements in as well… I wouldn’t have any space left for the elements I really want to be inside yet haven’t, not yet integrated in. Creator work!!!
And yeah so that’s how I realised that maybe Sunday would be a really good day for singer-songwriter elements. And oh, regarding that… hm.
You know, I came to realise that for the writing of the actual music, it’s devoid of true passion, ambition or desire kinda? At least that’s how it feels to me right now. It’s more like I have a progress bar, and slowly over time I complete more and more of it till I can finally tick the task off the list. But! I think things that truly are meant for you aren’t like that! For instance! Like writing or acting or intrapersonal intelligence! They just are!!!
Completely full in themselves and just the doing of the task itself is already kanpeki – perfection in itself. And that’s why I was thinking maybe I should go back to the old way of barebones music, for the actual composing might actually be a waste of my time and not worth it?! Hmm…
Anyway, back to the Xs. So basically one thing I realised is that I can just solve math problems for fun. Maybe in particular like algebra. Right now regularly I’m already doing Crossmath and I’m already at level 300+ and ranked in the top 50, 60000? So yeah I thought maybe I could add it in, this new math element. I still dk yet.
As for the other X. Basically it’s my explorer spirit. Whatever new things I wanna try, I insert it in when I don’t really have that much on. Because I mean, ideally it would be nice if I were an explorer! of life see… Am I already? Hmm. Whatever.
And then again, regarding music lessons, I actually learnt singing for the first time at a music school back in 2022, but I stopped later that year. Probably I would really like to go back to it and hone my craft then. Heh. What a nice way to word it. Oh, but I definitely can’t overload myself!! That would be a mission fail! as a creator don’t you think? Heh.
Yeah, and I totally decided that I’d lie back in bed and get up late on Sundays too…
You see, can’t only have all the doing elements and forget all about the being elements! I mean, I kind of would feel like hating myself that way 🙁
No balance no life!
Anyways! Finally, at this point I would like to point out a crucial fact.
I can see it now! Iconoclast.
So basically, one sad thing about many people in life is that they just do everything on autopilot as opposed to building a life that truly prospers them, with intentionality and the shedding of ego illusions like needing outside validation and doing things only to make other people happy, whilst forsaking yourself in the meantime.
I mean with true self-awareness, you break free of patterns and ask ‘Honestly me, is this what I really want or am I more like a lil’ string puppet being danced around by conditioning?!! And societal norms and standards and status quo and what everyone is collectively agreeing is good but it’s ultimately just keeping us all trapped in a cage?!!’
So yeah.
Let me round off and conclude this article.
Many of us are being limited by limited beliefs and such. A big one- we believe not in the truth of abundance. For the truth is unity and the flourishing of all. And there is enough to go around. If only we dare to dream. If only we dare to reclaim our childlike wonder and lovingly embrace! our inner child, not just letting it sadly huddle and cry in a corner. If only we dare to again open our hearts that have grown cold, closed up…
The more we do so, embracing love and light, the more we will brightly shine, dazzle and inspire others, till eventually the global collective is raised!! to a level where we live not in cold separation but warm joy.
Let us dream and strive. For it is the Age of Aquarius. Thank you.
Ps: Last article was too vulnerable and stuff, so I’m bumping it away with an early new article right on Monday! No jk lol.
PPS. It feels kinda miraculous!!! how life lined up the creation of this blog even. Don’t underestimate how life deftly pieces the puzzle together 4ya!!!